T\u0101pat k\u0101 daudzi azi\u0101tu rakstnieki, es nekad neesmu rakst\u012bjis par to, ka esmu azi\u0101ts.\n<\/p>\n
Ar to ir kaut kas saist\u012bts ar \u0100zijas pieder\u012bbu baltumam; man nekad nav n\u0101cies par to rakst\u012bt. Ar\u012b rakst\u012bt par imigr\u0101ciju un manu rasi t\u0101, lai nerad\u012btu saj\u016btu, ka es sp\u0113l\u0113ju cosplay, ir gr\u016bti. Ir viegli aprakst\u012bt manas eksotisk\u0101s malt\u012btes, kad es uzaugu. Bet ir p\u0101r\u0101k gr\u016bti run\u0101t par to, k\u0101p\u0113c, piem\u0113ram, azi\u0101t\u0113m ir viens no augst\u0101kajiem starprasu laul\u012bbu \u012bpatsvariem, bet t\u0101s ar\u012b piedz\u012bvo nesam\u0113r\u012bgi daudz vardarb\u012bbas. M\u0113s esam asimil\u0113tas, bet ar\u012b hiperseksu\u0101las un mazas, t\u0101p\u0113c m\u016bs ir viegli nogalin\u0101t, lai m\u0113s nenovestu nevain\u012bgus baltos v\u012brie\u0161us no ce\u013ca.\n<\/p>\n
Ja ir k\u0101ds, kam \u0161aj\u0101 jaut\u0101jum\u0101 b\u016btu j\u0101sp\u0113j man just l\u012bdzi, tad t\u0101 ir mana mamma, kas ar\u012b ir azi\u0101te, sieviete un imigrante. Ta\u010du tas, ka mums ir l\u012bdz\u012bga pieredze, nenoz\u012bm\u0113, ka vi\u0146ai ir kas noder\u012bgs, ko teikt. Ja nu ko, tad vi\u0146as padoms b\u016btu t\u0101ds, ka, ja j\u016bs visu dar\u012bsiet pareizi, j\u016bs b\u016bsiet dro\u0161\u012bb\u0101. Mani vec\u0101ki nekad mani nav mudin\u0101ju\u0161i k\u013c\u016bt par \u0101rsti vai juristi, ta\u010du spiediens sa\u0146emt labas atz\u012bmes, uzvesties perfekti un ierobe\u017eot br\u012bvo laiku - par\u0101d\u012bba, ko p\u0113tnieki d\u0113v\u0113 par \" at\u0146emo\u0161\u0101 audzin\u0101\u0161ana\", - ir paz\u012bstama.\n<\/p>\n
Tikai nesen esmu p\u0101rbaud\u012bjis \u0161\u012bs dom\u0101\u0161anas tr\u016bkumus. Varb\u016bt t\u0101p\u0113c, ka tikai nesen par\u0101d\u012bj\u0101s t\u0101das filmas k\u0101 \"Sarkan\u0101 kr\u0101s\u0101\" un \"Viss un visur vienlaic\u012bgi\", kas ilustr\u0113, ka piln\u012bba ir gan nevajadz\u012bga, gan neiesp\u0113jama. Tom\u0113r es to saprotu. Ja m\u0113s, meitas, pie\u0146emam \u0161o spiedienu, tad tikai t\u0101p\u0113c, lai attaisnotu upurus, ko m\u016bsu m\u0101tes nesa, lai ierastos \u0161eit un dzemd\u0113tu m\u016bs. Un, skatoties, k\u0101 mana d\u012bvaini specifisk\u0101 pieredze atspogu\u013cojas uz ekr\u0101na, es sp\u0113ju iejusties mammas lom\u0101 t\u0101, k\u0101 agr\u0101k to nesp\u0113ju.\n<\/p>\n
Sarkan\u0101 kr\u0101sa bija pirmais priek\u0161stats, ka kaut kas notiek. Vair\u0101k\u0101s atsauksm\u0113s bija min\u0113ts, ka filma ir par pubert\u0101ti. Tas, ka pirmsskolas vecuma meitene, kas satraukusies p\u0101rv\u0113r\u0161as par milzu pandu, ir metafora par menstru\u0101cij\u0101m. Un patie\u0161\u0101m, Meilinas m\u0101te vien\u0101 no filmas pazemojo\u0161\u0101kaj\u0101m ain\u0101m publiski izr\u0101da menstru\u0101lo ieliktn\u012b\u0161u kasti, ta\u010du man \"Sarkan\u0101 pagrieziena\" v\u0113st\u012bjums sl\u0113pjas filmas izska\u0146\u0101, kad vi\u0146as mamma zem gultas atkl\u0101j Meilinas da\u017e\u0101du p\u0101rk\u0101pumu pier\u0101d\u012bjumus. Nauda! Popgrupa 4Town! Un, pats galvenais, saspiesti un saburz\u012bti skolas darbi! Atz\u012bmes ir redzamas. B+! C! \" Nepie\u0146emami! \" Es ska\u013ci izsaucu, pirms pasp\u0113ju sevi aptur\u0113t.\n<\/p>\n
Cik atceros, vienreiz vidusskol\u0101 no fizikas atnesu m\u0101j\u0101s tr\u012bspunktu, un tas man uzreiz lika apmekl\u0113t priv\u0101tskolot\u0101ja nodarb\u012bbas. Bija mulsino\u0161i atkl\u0101t, ka, dro\u0161i sasniedzot tr\u012bsdesmit gadu vecumu, es apskau\u017eu Meilinu par to, ka pusaud\u017ea gados man bija iesp\u0113ja p\u0101rv\u0113rsties par sarkano pandu. Tas bija piespiedu k\u0101rt\u0101! T\u0101 nebija vi\u0146as vaina! Kad vi\u0146a k\u013cuva milz\u012bga, p\u016bkaina, m\u012b\u013ca un smird\u012bga, vi\u0146a nebija maza, paklaus\u012bga un klusa. Vi\u0146a bija ska\u013ca un aiz\u0146\u0113ma vietu, un tas bija labi. Vi\u0146as draugi, kuri vi\u0146u pie\u0146\u0113ma t\u0101du, k\u0101da vi\u0146a bija, nevis sod\u012bja par to, k\u0101da vi\u0146a nebija, vi\u0146u izgl\u0101ba. Vi\u0146a var\u0113ja eksperiment\u0113t. Vi\u0146a sa\u0146\u0113ma sliktas atz\u012bmes un pie\u0146\u0113ma mu\u013c\u0137\u012bgus l\u0113mumus.\n<\/p>\n
T\u0101pat k\u0101 vairums vidusskolas meite\u0146u, ar\u012b es pieder\u0113ju pie k\u0101das kli\u0137es. Es daudz ar vi\u0146iem kop\u0101 pavad\u012bju laiku, bet man pietr\u016bka daudzu iek\u0161\u0113ju joku. L\u012bdz \u0161im man nebija ien\u0101cis pr\u0101t\u0101, ka mani draugi tik daudz laika pavada kop\u0101 bez manis, jo vi\u0146iem nebija futbola, klaviersp\u0113les, vijoles m\u0113\u0123in\u0101jumu, prakses un lielu \u0123imenes tik\u0161anos katru ned\u0113\u013cas nogali k\u0101 man. Strukt\u016bra tevi notur, bet t\u0101 var ar\u012b apsl\u0101p\u0113t.\n<\/p>\n
\" M\u0113s atkl\u0101j\u0101m, ka sp\u0113ki, kas m\u016bs gl\u0101ba vecaj\u0101 valst\u012b, jaunaj\u0101 bija ne\u0113rt\u012bbas,\" s\u0113ro viena no Meilinas t\u0113t\u0101m. Vi\u0146as tantes un mamma viena p\u0113c otras atsak\u0101s no saviem nepaklaus\u012bgajiem pandu gariem, bet Meilina izv\u0113las patur\u0113t savu. Sav\u0101 nepiek\u0101p\u012bgaj\u0101 person\u012bgum\u0101 vi\u0146a godina savus sen\u010dus piln\u012bg\u0101k nek\u0101 jebkura no vec\u0101kaj\u0101m, cie\u0146piln\u0101kaj\u0101m radiniec\u0113m.\n<\/p>\n
K\u0101 sav\u0101 gr\u0101mat\u0101 \"Vientu\u013c\u0101kie amerik\u0101\u0146i\" (The Loneliest Americans) raksta D\u017eejs Kaspjans Kangs (Jay Caspian Kang), b\u016bt imigrantam no \u0100zijas noz\u012bm\u0113 m\u016b\u017e\u012bgi uzlikt savus st\u0101stus uz m\u012btiem par pie\u0146emto valsti, pa\u0146emt rok\u0101s t\u0101das gr\u0101matas k\u0101 \"Ce\u013c\u0101\" vai \"D\u017eonijs Tremeins\" un m\u0113\u0123in\u0101t saska\u0146ot to aprises ar savas dz\u012bves kont\u016br\u0101m.\n<\/p>\n
Nekur citur tas nav tik skaidri redzams k\u0101 film\u0101 \"Viss un visur vienlaic\u012bgi\". Man \u013coti patika mana kol\u0113\u0123a \u0112rika Ravenskrafta (Eric Ravenscraft) recenzija un v\u0113st\u012bjums par to, ka haosa vid\u016b ir j\u0101b\u016bt laipniem un j\u0101sniedz pal\u012bdz\u012bba cits citam. Ta\u010du man ir tik skaidrs, ka \u0161is st\u0101sts - par \u0137\u012bnie\u0161u izcelsmes amerik\u0101nieti, kas, cen\u0161oties gl\u0101bt sevi un savu meitu, \u0161\u0137etina visas at\u0161\u0137ir\u012bg\u0101s dz\u012bves, kuras vi\u0146ai var\u0113ja b\u016bt, - ir imigrantu vec\u0101ku st\u0101sts.\n<\/p>\n
Kad es biju b\u0113rns, mana m\u0101te str\u0101d\u0101ja par sekret\u0101ri, bet paral\u0113li m\u0101c\u012bj\u0101s vakarskol\u0101, lai k\u013c\u016btu par programmat\u016bras in\u017eenieri. Tas izdev\u0101s! Bet vi\u0146ai nebija iesp\u0113jas, piem\u0113ram, k\u013c\u016bt par m\u0101kslinieci. Vi\u0146ai bija liela un pla\u0161a \u0123imene, kuru vajadz\u0113ja uztur\u0113t, t\u0101p\u0113c vi\u0146a nevar\u0113ja ciest neveiksmi. Vi\u0146a nevar\u0113ja izv\u0113l\u0113ties k\u013c\u016bt par kaut ko tik vieglpr\u0101t\u012bgu k\u0101 Gear redaktore, kas liel\u0101ko da\u013cu laika pavada, test\u0113jot putek\u013cu s\u016bc\u0113jus un braucot ar velosip\u0113du.\n<\/p>\n
B\u016bt imigrantei noz\u012bm\u0113 vienlaic\u012bgi uztur\u0113t galv\u0101 daudzas v\u012bzijas par sevi. Ir ne tikai milz\u012bg\u0101 at\u0161\u0137ir\u012bba starp to, k\u0101 m\u0113s sevi uztveram un k\u0101 m\u016bs uztver citi (god\u012bgi sakot, da\u017ereiz es nezinu, k\u0101 j\u016bs uztverat), bet ar\u012b at\u0161\u0137ir\u012bba starp to, k\u0101 m\u016bsu dz\u012bve b\u016btu izskat\u012bjusies, ja m\u0113s b\u016btu paliku\u0161as tur, nevis ieradu\u0161\u0101s \u0161eit.\n<\/p>\n
Neviens to nesp\u0113j iemiesot tik perfekti k\u0101 Mi\u0161ela J\u016b (Michelle Yeoh), kas atveido Evel\u012bnu (Everything' s Evelyn). Ar savu graciozo atl\u0113tiskumu film\u0101 Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon vi\u0146a k\u013cuva par vienu no manas superzvaigznes nakts debesu zvaigzn\u0113m. Kad Evel\u012bna pingpong\u0101 apce\u013co multiversu un piedz\u012bvo realit\u0101ti, kur\u0101 vi\u0146a ir kr\u0101\u0161\u0146a kinozvaigzne - kadros, kuros Yeoh redzama savas filmas Crazy Rich Asians pirmizr\u0101d\u0113, - vi\u0146a p\u0113c atgrie\u0161an\u0101s savam v\u012bram atsmej: \" Es redz\u0113ju savu dz\u012bvi bez tevis, un t\u0101 bija skaista. \"\n<\/p>\n
Beigu beig\u0101s Evel\u012bna atz\u012bst, ka vi\u0146as izvirz\u012btie standarti bija neiesp\u0113jami. Tas, ka vi\u0146a izv\u0113las savu vien\u012bgo, net\u012bro, cilv\u0113cisko meitu, nevis visas p\u0101r\u0113j\u0101s realit\u0101tes, kas vi\u0146ai var\u0113ja b\u016bt, izp\u0113rk vi\u0146u attiec\u012bbas. Uzticoties m\u0101tes m\u012blest\u012bbai, \u013caundaris - vi\u0146as meita - atkal k\u013c\u016bst par vi\u0146as meitu. Tas ir \u013coti aizkustino\u0161i, un nevienam nevajadz\u0113tu b\u016bt perfektam, lai vi\u0146u m\u012bl\u0113tu.\n<\/p>\n
Bet, skatoties filmu \"Viss un visur\", ir ar\u012b gr\u016bti nekliegt: \"Bet tu ta\u010du esi Mi\u0161ela, kurva, J\u016b! Es esmu p\u0101rliecin\u0101ts, ka j\u016bsu meita ir \u013coti jauka, un j\u016bs visi izskat\u0101ties \u013coti laim\u012bgi, bet ar\u012b, kas b\u016btu, ja mana m\u0101te b\u016btu bijusi Mi\u0161ela Yeoh? Es var\u0113ju b\u016bt Mi\u0161elas Yeoh meita! Izv\u0113lies \u0161o realit\u0101ti! Es b\u016btu var\u0113jusi.\n<\/p>\n
Pretstat\u0101 sare\u017e\u0123\u012bt\u0101kaj\u0101m \"Viss visur\" un \"Sarkan\u0101 kr\u0101s\u0101\" v\u012bzij\u0101m ir \"Umma\" - Irisas \u0160imas re\u017eis\u0113t\u0101 un Sema Raimi produc\u0113t\u0101 filma, kas ir tik l\u0113na un garlaic\u012bga, ka es to nesp\u0113ju pabeigt (sorry!). Man fiziski s\u0101p\u0113ja v\u0113rot manas karalienes Sandras Oh garo, kust\u012bgo seju un Fivelas Stjuartes skulptur\u0101los vaigu kaulus tik neizp\u0113t\u012bt\u0101 paaud\u017eu traumas att\u0113lojum\u0101.\n<\/p>\n
Umma ir st\u0101sts par Amandu, korejieti, kura ir atteikusies no sava mantojuma, lai kop\u0101 ar meitu dz\u012bvotu izol\u0113t\u0101 saimniec\u012bb\u0101 bez elektr\u012bbas. Amandas m\u0101te bija vardarb\u012bga, t\u0101p\u0113c vi\u0146a aizb\u0113ga. Ta\u010du, protams, no pag\u0101tnes nevar b\u0113gt m\u016b\u017e\u012bgi. B\u016bt imigrantam bija tik gr\u016bti, ka Umma s\u0101ka \u013caunpr\u0101t\u012bgi iztur\u0113ties pret Amandu, ta\u010du Amanda p\u0101rtrauc \u0161o ciklu, piedod m\u0101tei un (spoileris!) \u013cauj savai meitai aizbraukt uz koled\u017eu. T\u0101 ir nevis nians\u0113ta, bet gan \u0161abloniska, vienas min\u016btes versija par sare\u017e\u0123\u012bt\u0101m imigrantu m\u0101tes un meitas attiec\u012bb\u0101m, ko j\u016bs var\u0113tu sniegt neieinteres\u0113tam baltajam terapeitam.\n<\/p>\n
Bet tas ir labi. Viena no asimil\u0101cijas privil\u0113\u0123ij\u0101m ir t\u0101, ka ir labi uz\u0146emt filmu, kas nav tik lieliska. Mums jau ir pietiekami daudz ar ko nodarboties. Past\u0101v konflikts starp to, vai b\u016bt \"\u012bstam\" azi\u0101tam un piln\u012bb\u0101 amerikaniz\u0113tam, vai ar\u012b to, vai tu ieiesi telp\u0101, un cilv\u0113ki tur redz\u0113s vai nu Sj\u016bzija Vongu, vai Long Duk Dongu. T\u0101 ir dz\u012bve, kas jums var\u0113ja b\u016bt viet\u0101, kuru atst\u0101j\u0101t, sal\u012bdzin\u0101jum\u0101 ar to, k\u0101da jums ir tagad. K\u0101 Vaimonds saka gr\u0101mat\u0101 \"Viss un visur\", p\u0101r\u0101k daudz realit\u0101\u0161u, kas ir j\u016bsu galv\u0101, saplosa j\u016bsu smadzenes k\u0101 m\u0101la pods.\n<\/p>\n
Es esmu tuv\u0101k Meilinas mammai nek\u0101 Meilinai, un es esmu tuv\u0101k Evel\u012bnai nek\u0101 vi\u0146as meitai D\u017eojai; man pa\u0161ai ir maza meita. Mana meita ir tre\u0161\u0101s paaudzes imigrante, turkl\u0101t divrasa, un konflikti, ar kuriem vi\u0146ai n\u0101ksies saskarties, b\u016bs tikpat at\u0161\u0137ir\u012bgi no maniem, k\u0101 mana asimil\u0113t\u0101s otr\u0101s paaudzes pieredze at\u0161\u0137\u012br\u0101s no manas m\u0101tes pieredzes.\n<\/p>\n
Bet es ceru, ka man izdosies vi\u0146ai uzd\u0101vin\u0101t vismaz vienu d\u0101vanu, neskaitot vielmai\u0146u, kas neatlaid\u012bsies (un briesm\u012bgu redzi). Es ceru, ka vi\u0146ai multiverss atk\u0101psies. \u0160\u012b ir m\u016bsu vieta, neatkar\u012bgi no t\u0101, vai citiem tas pat\u012bk vai n\u0113, un vi\u0146a var\u0113s b\u016bt t\u0101da, k\u0101da vi\u0146a ir - rudmataina, p\u016bkaina, smird\u012bga, lesbiete, kung fu meistare vai kinozvaigzne ar hotdogiem pirkstu viet\u0101. \u0100zijas amerik\u0101nietes m\u0113r\u0137is ir b\u016bt pilnv\u0113rt\u012bgai cilv\u0113cei, lai k\u0101 tas ar\u012b izskat\u012btos.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
T\u0101pat k\u0101 daudzi azi\u0101tu rakstnieki, es nekad neesmu rakst\u012bjis par to, ka esmu azi\u0101ts. Ar to ir kaut kas saist\u012bts ar \u0100zijas pieder\u012bbu baltumam; man nekad nav n\u0101cies par to rakst\u012bt. Ar\u012b rakst\u012bt par imigr\u0101ciju un manu rasi t\u0101, lai nerad\u012btu saj\u016btu, ka es sp\u0113l\u0113ju cosplay, ir gr\u016bti. Ir viegli aprakst\u012bt manas eksotisk\u0101s malt\u012btes, kad […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":35558,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-35543","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","","category-movies"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/movieworld.blog\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/35543","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/movieworld.blog\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/movieworld.blog\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/movieworld.blog\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/movieworld.blog\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=35543"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/movieworld.blog\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/35543\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/movieworld.blog\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/35558"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/movieworld.blog\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=35543"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/movieworld.blog\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=35543"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/movieworld.blog\/lv\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=35543"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}